Not so much of a hole today

Went back to psych. 26th. was not having good week. she wants to keep me on current meds for another month and see.

Having some increased anxiety. However, today is a good day. Better than I have been, no apparent anxiety.

Back again

Going back for my follow up with psych after increasing abilify to 10 mg. Didn't really see any difference. Did have an upswing about 23 days after. Just in time for Easter Egg hunt. Still feeling more up than down, but not sure it is due to abilify. TaTa for now.

Day 5 of increased meds. Thought I was feeling it, but today has not been good. I have nothing to do at work and that seems to make it worse. What I do have to do I do not want to do. What purpose do I serve? Not doing a good job at anything. Employee, mother, wife. I don't want to live another 40 years like this. Don't get freaked, I am not thinking of doing anything drastic, I just know we gotta get this fixed! What kind of example am I setting for my son? Just setting him up to have weight issues as well as slothfulness. It doesn't matter that I have a chemical imbalance, kids learn what they see.