Day 5 of increased meds. Thought I was feeling it, but today has not been good. I have nothing to do at work and that seems to make it worse. What I do have to do I do not want to do. What purpose do I serve? Not doing a good job at anything. Employee, mother, wife. I don't want to live another 40 years like this. Don't get freaked, I am not thinking of doing anything drastic, I just know we gotta get this fixed! What kind of example am I setting for my son? Just setting him up to have weight issues as well as slothfulness. It doesn't matter that I have a chemical imbalance, kids learn what they see.