I think of nothing all day long. When I will be finished with something so I can do nothing? I think of things to do, but can’t get the motivation or “want to” to get up and do them. I seem to find the get up and go to get up and go to the kitchen because I have gotten so fat I fit nothing and am wearing moo moos again. How much lying in the bed will I have to do before I feel rested and satisfied with the amount of nothing I have done?
Counselor uped my Abilify since last posting. I know think I need more. It worked for a little while then for the last month, maybe two I have felt this way. Seems to be getting worse. I have thrown my back out a couple times and had to lay flat of my back. I have to make mysefl do things and even then I am not fully engaged in them. I would rather just not.
Here we go again.
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