I could throw up. I want to run. I don't want to be here. I don't want to interact with anyone. I sit here going through my mind excuses I could give for needing to leave but I can never picture myself actually talking to my boss. I just want to get up and walk out without talking to anyone, but then I would have to deal with them when I came back. and I would have to come back because I have to work to pay the bills.

I feel like a scream is trapped inside me and I can't let it out. So I just eat another cookie and try to do some work. Get up to go get another soda. That will kill a few minutes.