Still Up

I am stilling feeling better. Been tracking my moods on www.moodscope.com and today was an all time high. I have only logged 4 times however.

I can tolerate my current state, the only change I would make would be more "feelings". I am just "here" - neither bad nor good. We went to the lake Saturday and while it was a good day I did not have the "excitment" and "joy" I have felt in times past. I could have been there or at home and been ok.

I called my phsyc. today to get a script for Ambilify. He had given me a sample the 1st or 2nd time I saw him - it was 11/09 according to his nurse. I didn't take it cause I didn't understand what it was and why I needed it. But since I definately see there is something more and it is not all resolved I would like to give it a try. I am a littl leary about side affects. A friends husband was put on it and he started shaking and they think it is permanent now.

I will get the samples today but he wants to see me earlier than my 8/2 appointment, so I will go in Thursday to see him.